Who is to be blamed?

My hello to all Indians

I have adressed this to all Indians because there has been something going in my mind which is quenching my soul from within. I am 21 years old and is there anything I have done? I haven't been a good daughter, I havn't been a good lover and moreover I haven't even being a good Indian. There have been times that I have hurt my parents by over-hearing what they wanted to tell me, I haven't been a good lover because I refused to give up my ego for his love and I haven't been an Indian itself, good or bad has to be considered later.

Not only I, there are millions of people like me who come out of their homes, do what they have to and go back without even a slightest guilt of what they have done. Take for example, people throw garbage here and there. They make the place dirty and there are not one, not two but millions like them out there. Just imagine if a million people come and throw garbage in your drawing room, how are you going to react? Such thought hurts and infuraites.But we , INDIANS, do it everyday, every hour and everytime without even caring that this is my house but no, it isn't our house, its our country. And we, INDIANS, we do it and then we blame our municipal corporations for what we have done ourselves. It's we INDIANS who bribe government officers and then shout at top of our voice of the increasing corruption. Give it a thought that this CORRUPTION came to being only because we wanted it to and it will exist untill we want it to. Even the thought of untaxed income gives us relief, so who are we to blame corruption. Its we who support it.
We blame our government, but do we really have to blame our government because the so called "Literate and Learned" don't go to vote. Rural percentage of voting has been many times greater in numbers as compared to urban percentage. We MBAs, engineers, doctors sit back and enjoy holiday at the day of election and then blame government for what it has been doing and what it has not been doing. We have no right to do so because the brain of the country lies asleep in its cozy blanket and renders its nation paralysed. The country has the largest workforce but we still lag far behind other countries. We say our politicians are illiterate but honestly ask yourself, how many of us wish to join politics. I want to, but I am a girl, so I am not even allowed to think of it even.

We don't follow traffic rules and then blame the traffic police for the increasing accidents.We forget that traffic rules are meant for us only not for that traffic cop who has no interest whether you live or die.We recieve many SMSs on valentine day, dewali, holi but we forget republic day and we call ourselves INDIAN. We recieve education here and there give benefits somewhere else.

We all Indians are similar to those who ruled us before 6 decades. We have exploited our motherland for our benefits and still we blame our country for week political system, for corrupt practices, for low literacy levels, for declining female population, for pollution, for population and for everything. The list is endless.

I dont know who is to be blamed but it hurts.

~~one more time~~

A thought just went through my mind
and I looked at myself.
Stole a moment of quiet and kind
and thought I wish I could cry
one more time.


Days and years have flown away
and here I stand, gathering
my emotions which were torn away.
And thought I wish I could live
one more time.

Shattered dreams and pain of life,
and here I am, lonely and sad
in the fight of my own strife.
And thought I wish I could die
one more time.